August 7, 2008
don't really want to write, but I am going to try to reach out to others to help motivate me, before I isolate and implode. I have an AMAZING school class this year. So far I only have 19 students. I can' t believe it. I feel pressured to really get them moving if that's all I have. Plus... their behavior is so good, that we don't need to spend as much time reviewing the rules. With 35, reviewing the rules over and over is extremely important at the beginning of the year. I've been getting out and playing soccer. This class has the best soccer players I've ever seen. They pass it and do "tricks" and are such good sports. So... I LOVE my job and my class. Now the CRAP... I am frustrated that I haven't been sticking to my exercise plan. I leave school pretty late and just don't want to go to the gym. I wake up early, but find my self anxious to get ready for work and get to school early. This is part of my addictive personality. At the beginning of the school year my addiction is my job and class. Which is a good thing, but I just don't have the balance and I cannot let my good eating habits and exercise routines go down the drain. I am also very upset because the few times I've tried to jog.... my damn knee is still hurting. So... I can go do the elliptical, but for me it's just not the same. So... I'm frustrated. Plus... my boss BLAH... it's just difficult. I have a situation that has been very hard to communicate with her about. The office assistant that works with her quit yesterday. My principal was boasting that she quit because she was being "tough" and making her do her job. It's just WEIRD! I can't / don't want to go into all the details. So... I've been eating. My weight is going up. This is the start of the yo~yo, and I am trying to head it off before it really gets out of control. I got up to run today, but my knee hurt too badly. Just another day! I'm excited to get to school and see my sweet students.